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i decided to be a banana for Halloween. It seemed like a fun costume, that's all i really thought about it when i decided. Then i talked to Goddess Lycia shortly before going out for trick or treat and a party. She observed how appropriate it was that i would be dressing as a phallic symbol. After all, She keeps me totally cum-denied and regularly aroused. So She suggested that i will think all night about being dressed as a cum-denied boner, who actually has a cum-denied boner. A Boner with a Boner. She suggested that others will see my costume as a representation of what i actually am, and that this will cause me embarrassment. As i write this, she keeps embedding this suggestion into my subconscious mind. Goddess Lycia will be pretty and sexy, wearing super high heels and a super short dress. i will be a boner with a boner! She will be lusted after, and i will be laughed at. i feel embarrassed just writing this. It will be a desperate, cum-denied Halloween.
Tags: Boner Desperate Cum-denied Lycia Halloween
Having a secretary is indispensable in my business. i'm in the process of starting a new secretary, and it occurred to me, in my planning to train her, how similar the relationship is between boss-secretary and Domme-sub/slave.
What are the duties of a good secretary? There are tasks that must be performed regularly, but essentially the job duties are to do whatever i ask her/him to do. Business, personal, whatever, and she/he will always try her/his best.
A good secretary will end up having to know some of your inside business that others do not. The secretary can be trusted completely to be discreet. In fact, i believe the word "secretary" means "keeper of secrets." i can share this information with her because she needs to know it, and her loyalty is unswerving.
What tasks do you give your secretary? At first, time-consuming "grunt" work that frees you to spend time on more productive and income-generating work. As your secretary learns, you delegate more and more, and she's happy to have the increased responsibility.
Who gets the credit for the work product? The boss, it seems, just as history tells us which *generals* won the battle even though they never fired a shot. The boss gets credit. Secretary gets verbal praise, and maybe an increase in pay, but no glory.
Unlike most jobs, a secretary never knows what the day will bring. The tasks are whatever is dumped on the secretary's desk, and she/he will snap to and get it done. What are the tasks? After emergencies are taken care of, it's really whatever tasks the boss doesn't want to do.
Good secretaries are a rare breed. They are fantastic people. They are proud of their skills, and they're so smart. But when you ask a secretary what she/he does for a living, she/he will frequently respond that she/he is "Ms. Smith's secretary," or "Mr. Jones' administrative assistant." Their work identity is so tied to their boss. Their job function, when it comes down to it, is to elevate their boss and see that the boss is taken care of.
To me, it's very similar to the mindset of a submissive/slave. You do whatever you're called upon to do. It could be anything, and it's not for you to say whether it's "part of your job." You just do it. If your Domme wants your input into a decision, you give it, but in the end She decides and you carry it out. You do it promptly and do it well. Hopefully your task will bring Her joy, or income, or pleasure, or fame, and your reward is knowing that you made Her happy. You may even get the treat of a pat on the head or verbal praise. The only differences are that there are few to no boundaries in the Domme-sub relationship, and no pay (you may even have to pay for the privilege of being the sub).
In my next life, i want to be Goddess Lycia's secretary.
My use of the feminine gender when referring to secretaries is due only to the fact that mine is a woman. Great secretaries are found in both genders, and i do not intend any offense.
my daily worship while watching Goddess Lycia's video, "Shiny Pantyhose Ass Worship," requires the use of a cockring. i went to the adult store to buy one today. i get so hard and frustrated in that store. Aside from BDSM supplies, it's filled with so many devices and products designed to enhance sexual pleasure. It struck me that i use many of these products, but She has me use them to increase erotic suffering. Lubricants, aphrodisiacs, horny goat weed pills-all to make me as horny as possible, even though She never lets me cum. And now a cockring, which is designed to turn in into a jackhammer for sex. But not me-it's to keep me hard and frustrated during the "no-touch" Ass Worship video. i bought one called a "Clit Buddy." A silicone ring fits over the base of the penis, and there is a mounting hole at the top where a bullet-shaped vibrator can be inserted. Above the vibrator mount, there is a little silicone arc that is designed to stimulate the clitoris during sex. It actually looks pretty cool when you put it on-with the bullet vibrator strapped to the base of my pili, it looked like it had a jet pack attached to it. Well, it would be cool, except that i'm not using it for sex, so in the end, it's just humiliating. i turned it on and started watching the video, with the instructions to be on my knees, hands behind the back, with an erection and cockring in place. It was so frustrating and torturous. i noticed that i didn't feel the vibrator that much-apparently this is intended for the clitoral stimulation, not for the man. So i rotated it 180 degrees so the bullet and tickler were under instead of on top. i almost jumped out of my skin. The vibrator and tickler at the base of my pili were so intense. i continued to watch Goddess Lycia's lovely ass sway back and forth, and i almost passed out. i never dripped so much. So that was today's new tormenting experience, and i'll do it every day as the video instructs.
i saw a urologist today, per Goddess Lycia's instructions, to obtain a medical opinion on the safety of long-term orgasm denial. The doctor's opinion was: He sees no reason why it would be unsafe.
The visit itself was more humiliating than i anticipated. After undergoing a bladder ultrasound, the doctor came into the exam room and asked why i was there. i told him that everything was working fine, but i wanted his opinion on the safety of a certain sexual practice. He nodded as if he'd heard that request before. i had written my question in advance to be sure that i was precise. i asked whether it was safe to refrain from orgasm or ejaculation for extremely long periods of time, while being sexually aroused on a regular basis. He thought for a moment, and said no, he could think of no reason why that would present any problem.
He then started questioning me, and things became embarrassing and strange. He asked what i meant by "extremely long periods," and i answered "months." His jaw dropped and he said, "Months?" He then asked about the nature of the sexual arousal, and the length of time of my erection. i answered 30 minutes (which is the length of my daily devotional masturbation). We then had the following exchange:
Doctor: "And then what?"
me: "What do you mean, and then what?"
Doctor: "What happens after manual stimulation and an erection lasting 30 minutes?"
me: "Nothing."
Doctor: "Nothing? You mean the erection just goes away?"
me: "Yes."
This was followed by about 15 seconds of him just staring at me. i could feel my face getting red. He asked why i would do such a thing. i told him that it was a form of sexual activity that was mutually enjoyed. He wouldn't let it go. He asked again why i would refrain from ejaculating on purpose. i just repeated that it was an activity that was mutually enjoyed. i wanted to disclose more to him, humiliating as it might be, but for personal reasons i did not. He stared at me some more, and i got redder. He then explained that the body's production of sperm would slow down if ejaculation was not taking place, and repeated that he saw no reason why it would not be safe.
He then examined my testicles, and found no problem. Then he insisted on checking my prostate and had me bend over the exam table on my elbows. i'd undergone this once before, and it's unpleasant. A lubed, latex-gloved finger inserted from behind with hardly any warning, and then feeling around inside for about 20 seconds. He pronounced my prostate fine, and said again that he saw no safety problem with the activity.
***N.B.**** DISCLAIMER: i am not a doctor, and a personal medical opinion was given to me by a physician, which included an examination and a personal history provided by me. i am not suggesting that anyone else should rely on this opinion, and they should get their own if they want one. In addition, i do not wear a device that prevents erection, and i have regular erections. i did NOT obtain an opinion on the long-term safety of chastity devices. This may present different medical issues such as atrophy or muscle wasting.
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Blurz
Posted On 09/12/2008 01:29:21
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blurz. n. [bluhrz]
origin: Modern English. blur (a blurred condition; indistinctness) + z (modern plural suffix)
[originated 2008 by Goddess Lycia]
The act of creating a visual phenomenon by rapidly oscillating a human penis.
Blurz are created in an ritualistic activity by a submissive male at the direction of a dominant woman. In this activity, the male is naked, and in a private but potentially embarrassing place, such as an office or place of business. While standing naked, the male undulates his hips to generate a whipping action of the penis, at a rate sufficiently rapid to create a visual blur. The motion of the penis may be horizontal (similar to the wagging of a tail), vertical or elliptical. Throughout the ritual, the submissive male chants a humiliating mantra, such as, "I am addicted to blurz; blurz make me drippy." Through repetition of the mantra, the subject is subconsciously compelled to perform blurz, and to become sexually excited while doing so, despite his consciousness of the absolutely ridiculous and embarrassing nature of the activity. His humiliation is amplified when he observes, over time, that pre-ejaculate will splash on his body as the penis slaps against the thighs and testicles. Blurz are performed once daily for a prescribed period of eight minutes. Hand contact with the penis, and orgasm, are absolutely prohibited.
Goddess Lycia has directed me to perform blurz seven days a week. i never know when a casual conversation will lead to Her adding to my embarrassment and humiliation. In this case, a conversation about flaccid penises, and their silly appearance, led to Her assigning me to perform this ridiculous activity as described above. i do my blurz in my office whenever possible, when i am alone. i close my door, close the blinds, strip naked, and rotate my hips in various ways to wave my pili back and forth, up and down, or in a circle for 8 minutes (my "pili" is what i must call my penis, due to another "casual conversation" with Her). No one can see me, but i know i look so ridiculous that i'm still embarrassed. Sometimes the light casts a silhouette against the wall and i can see my pili waving around as a shadow-further reminding me how silly i look. Well, at least i don't have to look in a mirror. The chanting has affected my reaction to the whole activity. When i first started, i was always flaccid, but now my pili is erect or semi-erect as i strip. My body gets excited about blurz, even though i'm still embarrassed by the whole idea. My pili starts to drip earlier and earlier. Tonight, for example, it started dripping after 5 minutes of waving and chanting. Blurz make me horny, and only because She declared that they would. She is able to will physiological changes in me, because She controls my mind completely.
Tags: Blurz Penis Pili Lycia Embarrassing Dripping Ridiculous
i've written frequently about the incredible experience of Goddess Lycia's spell, but i must try to express the feeling that overcomes me when She is inducing the trance. Her voice is so sweet, soothing and calming. It's sexy, but not overly so at that point. It's hard to describe. Maybe the voice of the sweetest nurse in the world, who is there to take care of you and your mind.
While She's talking to you, you are fully aware that She's not nursing you or healing you, but rather, taking you to a place of sexual torment, complete vulnerability, and subjugation to Her whims. She can do whatever She wants, no matter how destructive.
That feeling-of being led down that path so calmly and caringly to a place of sexual torment-may be the most intense experience i've ever had. The only way i can describe it is Pure Delight. It's like honey running through your veins. It works because you can let go and trust that while She may and probably will inflict hurt, She will not ruin unless you ask for it.
Tags: Lycia Torment Spell Trance Sweet Delight
i remember learning about resonance in physics class. There are different forms of it in nature, but audio resonance is something we all experience. It happens when the frequency or amplitude (i forget which) of a sound wave reaches a certain point, and objects exposed to the sound wave will vibrate. i believe this is what causes singers to be able to shatter glass. The molecules vibrate at the point of resonance. You've probably also heard it in church, when an organ play a certain note that makes the building shake or vibrate a little. Resonance has even been blamed for the collapse of a bridge. i don't think audio resonance in this sense is the scientific cause of the effect on a person who listens to Goddess Lycia, but there is a similar effect. Her voice makes you shake. There are so many different qualities at work-Her diction, Her tone, the rise and fall of Her sentences, Her choice of words, and of course Her sexy purrs and kissies. It doesn't matter, because the effect is the same. i think your molecules do react to Her, because the shuddering and the incredible feelings that you have are involuntary, and not caused by mental imagery. It's just Her voice, having an effect at the most basic level of your organic structure. Just listening to Her narrative in the Hypnohose video takes over my body completely. i've heard sexy voices in my life, but nothing compares to the audio experience of listening to Goddess Lycia. Everyone should experience this in their lifetime.
my ongoing cum-denied state, which feeds a growing need to find stimulation, has led me to have to write this embarrassing story. A new adult store opened in my area, and i went to check it out because we've never had a large adult store around here. The place is enormous, and there must have been 40 or 50 different types of vibrators on the racks. i didn't go there to buy a vibrator. i was browsing there to look for topical items that might increase my arousal and torment. It occurred to me, however, that using a vibrator on my pili might feel good. i bought a small, inexpensive one. i was anxious to try it out, but knew that i should get Goddess Lycia's permission first. She pointed out that i shouldn't have taken it upon myself to even buy it for this purpose without talking to Her first, even though i was going to ask permission before using it. She's right, of course. It was stupidly presumptuous of me to make the purchase, when She is in control of my parts and how i am to arouse myself. This is not an area where i should be making any form of independent decision. i shouldn't have made the mistake, but at least i have learned this lesson. i am looking forward to using my new vibrator on my orgasm-starved pilicock.
1. It feels good when think about the fact that you are owned. It arouses me, clears my head and makes me feel happy.
2. When you do anything, you are doing it to please two people, yourself and your owner. It's a great motivator to make good choices in your life.
3. You are never bored. If you feel that there's nothing to do, you can always turn your thoughts to Her, and it feels good.
4. You never need to be lazy. You can always write something about Her.
5. It simplifies your life so much, because you have only overriding goal, and in working toward that goal, all your choices will be good ones.
6. All choices in your sex life, or erotic life, are made for you. You give up all your freedom in this regard, but the Goddess making the decisions knows what you need. It's fantastic.
7. It feels good to give. you are receiving as well, but you are always number 2 (or less!), not number 1.
8. You can usually dispel bad thoughts or sad thoughts by focusing on how lucky you are.
9. You never feel that you don't have a purpose, because you always do.
10. You never feel that life is meaningless, because the meaning is found in serving someone that you adore from your head to your toes.
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