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Some interesting comments yesterday in chat. I do occasionally get the “you should/shouldn’t talk about X” kind of feedback. I get it more from the unknown chatters, and it’s pretty much part of the bargain when express yourself in an open room. The viewer/listener obsessing over watching, and while the service is free, it’s still a website and people have certain expectations. By accepting money from the stranger, it would be to commit to making those topics as entertaining as I can to as many people as I can.
But it always makes me shake my head when people come to my personal room and tell me what I should or should not say. To me, it’s sort of like being a guest in someone’s house and criticizing their cooking or their taste in furniture. There is a pithy answer to them which comes quickly to mind. But I’m not going to say fuck off, I don’t care if you don’t like it, although it’s tempting. But it would be untrue, because I actually do like it that a lot of people visit my chat and generally enjoy it. Many of my topics are shared to be entertaining/informative to a wide number of viewers, and I’m pleased that they find an appreciative audience.
But guess what? Not every single thing I put up there is about entertaining casual viewers. Confrencing almost every day is a hell of a lot of work. I had no idea what I was getting into when I started. But I felt it would be a good way to create and maintain a connection with one very important group of people: my admirers. And so it has proven to be.
I am blessed with a lot of things in this life: good physical and mental health, a sharp brain, what are usually perceived as good looks, and the love of my partners, and good friends. I am intensely grateful for those things and I try to acknowledge at least one of those blessings to myself every day of my life. I’ve expressed all of them there.
The other thing I am blessed with is a career that I love and am good at, which keeps me thinking and on my toes. It creates a contsant evolution in my own mind, about self, perception and ideals on how I view the world and think things should work. I am required to constantly be learning something new and processing different ways to do the same action which is very easily turned over and applied to my daily life. And aside from which I have met people who turned into incredibly sweet and generous friends. There have been a number of guys over the years who have been really wonderful to me, although a lot of them don’t wish to be mentioned here.
However, the two most significant of these friends have given me their permission to write a little about them here: Dako and Armani. And you know what? I don’t mention half, or even a third, of all the gifts they give me or the sweet things they do for me. I assure you, I am being quite restrained when I speak of how good they are to me. It’s not just dresses and jewelry – they both do other things for me that I cannot discuss, because it would cross a line of discretion that we’ve agreed on. But those gift-wrapped boxes are something that I can acknowledge without any worry about disclosing too-personal information. And since the pleasure they get from giving those gifts to me is seeing the pleasure that I take in them, oh yes, I am going to acknowledge them. It’s another way for me to communicate to them that even when we don’t see each other, I’m thinking of them and they are a sweet presence in my life. They enjoy that, and it’s important to me that I give them that. More important, in fact, than entertaining strangers.
So, Ally and Dr Tinydick, what you’re interpreting as bragging is me just being knocked out by how amazingly good they are to me. Bragging would be me saying “I deserve this, it’s only my due”. I know what I think my due is, and when someone goes way above and beyond it, I’m touched and grateful. That’s what you’re reading here.
I hope that makes you happier about just skipping over ideas that don’t interest you, because I’m happy to have you as a guest here in my house. However, I have a style of housekeeping that suits me and the residents of my life, and I don’t plan on changing it for drop-in visitors. /end rant 
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