i re-enrolled in my support group for the cum-denied. It is a Yahoo group named MyKeyholder, in which the enrollees have to report their orgasms. Daily statistics are kept for each member, including the length of time denied, "personal bests," device used, whether self-denied or controlled by another, and their goal (or the keyholder's goal).

Congratulations are announced for personal bests and other milestones. It's so embarrassing.

Despite my torment, i am actually lucky. At least i get to touch it a lot and don't wear a device. Goddess Lycia's goal for me is "indefinite." Most other people have a specific time for their goal. One guy has "permanent" as the goal, but he is self-chastised. Another has "Suffer" as his keyholder's goal. So again, i am lucky. On the other hand, Goddess Lycia reminds me regularly that permanent denial is possible, or even probable.

i'm so hard right now.