i am realizing that the longer Mistress Madame has me in chastity, the less my desire for orgasm is becoming. While there are still times when the need and desire to release, and the ache in my groin is calling at me for release and i can barely think of anything else, but those times are becoming less and less. I sit at seventy one days without being permitted to orgasm and it is not as much as a burden as it was at around day twenty two or twenty three. This in no way means that i am any less devoted or focused on Mistress Madame, the opposite is actually true. My selfish need for release in a way inhibits my focus on my true desire, to serve and please Mistress. With my need for release diminishing , my focus on Mistress is increasing. which is how it should be. Since Mistress Madame has honored me by taking ownership of me, i've learned that She knows what is best for me. i never thought that being in chastity for this length of time would be so beneficial to my service to Mistress. While my focus on Her increases, my service to Her will improve, She will be more pleased,  therefore i will be happy and try to serve her with even more fervor, focus and dedication, which will cause my service will improve even more, she will be more pleased.... it is a wonderful cycle that increases her dominance and my submission.  i believe that Mistress knew that all of this would happen when she put me in chastity. This is just one example of why Mistress Madame is  the one i put my trust in. She knows what is best for me. I am being convinced day in and day out that She knows what i need more than i do myself. In my suffering, She has made me more focused and has increased my desire to please Her. That is why i love to suffer for Her sake. In the suffering i am naturally becoming more submissive to Her. Which is exactly what i want to be. She is superior to me which is why she makes the rules and i obey. It is what is best for both of us.