I woke up at 6:30pm today....I just like to sleep way too much.

So, regarding the title of this post. Being that I have been recently discussing the fact that I am a compassionate Mistress, I figure I should also fess up to My roots: I wasn't always nice.

As a kid, I had ADHD, which means I was very hyperactive. I got pleasure out of hurting boys and girls, both emotionally and physically. Also, once I started hurting someone, I didn't want to stop. The more they would ask Me to stop, the more I wanted to hurt them.

As I grew older, I was also fairly mean to My boyfriends. They were always submissive boys who did whatever I asked (running errands, buying Me small items, basically doing anything I didn't want to do). I was also really into mind games.

My main problem was the fact that I didn't listen to people's pleas for Me to stop whatever hurtful thing I was doing to them. People asking Me to "cut it out," simply fueled Me to persist. I was like, "Why can't you just take it?"

In the past number years, I've done a lot of soul-searching. I've come to the conclusion that it is not worth losing the people I care about in order to gratify My own sadistic tendencies without consideration for their limits. I have practiced restraint, and believe I am finally where I need to be in order to maintain positive relationships with the people in My life, as well as with My submissives.

*shrugs* So, that's that.

Tags: Goddess Lycia Cruelty Adhd Limits Soul Searching