Title: 7 Months in Chastity...
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Blog Entry: So what has 7 months of chastity done to me? For those who have not read my profile or just don't know me at all, i've been denied since later December 2007 by a spectacular Domme on this website. This blog is just to give an insight into the whole experience. If Y/you get anything out of this, then that's great. Anyway, my initial thought was "discipline" - being disciplined enough to hold back on urges and channeling that energy into different areas in my life. i guess this can be tied in with keeping "occupied". The past 7 months has been a complete rollercoaster ride with near death's and a passing, the long and frustrating hunt for a job, internships, university, putting up with people's bullsh*t (not on this site) and disappointments in the love department. All these elements have kept me occupied which means less time spent thinking about orgasms. Hell, i don't think i've ever found myself really thinking about it for more than 15mins on any occasion because i have 5 things running through my head at the same time which has really affected my sleep. Although orgasms have not been at the top of my list as a high priority, chastity has. As frustrating as it has been on several occasions, it has given me more time and energy to focus on more important areas of my life. For example (now c'mon guys, you know i'm being honest here), after an orgasm, there's a duration of time where you just feel highly unmotivated to do anything resourceful except for sleeping or eating a sandwich. i guess that was me 7 months ago. Orgasm after orgasm...and sandwich after sandwich (or KFC to be precise). Life was a bludge and as a result, i was consistently putting on weight every month. After being whipped into shape by a particular Domme on this website, my lifestyle has changed drastically. It started (and continued) with following a few simple rules (no cumming, no touching and peeing sitting down) which can be found in my profile page in detail. Initially it was an awkward adjustment but it feels second nature now. Having no other rules in my life (apart from obeying the law), this was a good foundation for disciplining myself. i'm happy and proud to say that i have obeyed these rules which has kept me from orgasms for 7 successful months. Sure, there's the occasional sensation of heavy balls and skin ripping (not literally) erections but it was managable with great self-control. From the time i saved from not looking at porn on a daily basis and wanking, i picked up some old and new hobbies and even got back into shape. i've manage to lose approximately 5-6kgs since December and tone up a few areas of my body. However, i still have a long way to go. Spiritually, this is has been a completely humbling experience. It is said repetitively but there is no other way to describe it. It has really helped me focus..........and obviously become more submissive in the hope that i will get that release soon (haha wishful thinking i guess). The only thing i am disappointed about and thankful for at the same time is the amount of drama in my vanilla life. Without it, perhaps i would have spent more time thinking about orgasms and possibly broken the rules. With it, it has kept me busy and somewhat crazy - chastity along with the set of rules (to keep me grounded) were the only factors keeping me sane. i'm very thankful for the entire experience. Just a quick note for guys doing the long term chastity, keep yourself busy (not stressed) with other things non-related to orgasms. This will help you reduce the amount of time you think about orgasms. Sometimes i see blogs written by people who look like they're on the verge of blowing on their screen but aren't allowed to that it freaks me out.
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